Thank You

After writing something, I always notice a certain quality, a "je ne sais quoi", which is perfectly summed up in the fact that i just used a French phrase to sound intelligent when I got a D in my French junior cert. It's just the way I write, and for the time being, nothings is going to change it unless god forbid I become a better writer. But not this time; on this occasion I abandon any pretense to a greater intelligence , talent, or wisdom to write about something very important to me.

I want to be a film critic, and as simple as that sentence seems, I cannot express how long it took me to realize that about myself, but it fits so beautifully. I have always loved stories, and that is a passion which has only intensified with age. I have been exposed to so many stories through the mediums of film, television, literature, audio drama, graphic novels, video games, anime, web series and there are so many many more brilliant beautiful things just waiting to be experienced, and that's just what exists right now. When i find a film or a story that is truly great, I cannot express the sheer joy and jubilation I feel. I am passionate about the things i enjoy, and I want to devote my life to learning about film and being able to watch, think about and discuss it as a career, a way to make a living, is a concept so unbelievably perfect it cannot be put into words.

And now i would like to consider the road not taken: there was a long time when this passion was lying dormant inside me and I didn't even know it was there. If it had continued like that, I can only imagine my world being just that little bit darker, because the single event that led to me discovering my passion also set me down the road, If it hadn't happened there would be so many things i would have never discovered, so many sources of euphoria left untapped, both in the world of fiction and in the real world where I define myself as the person I am today. and that day was today five years ago on the 20th of January 2009 when i watched my first episode of doctor who. which may seem pretentious and insignificant but it is so much more then that.

Its about friendship and bravery, love and loss, life and death, forgiveness and guilt, and being human and being less then human, and sometimes being a little bit more then human. skill and intellect, and sometimes a sometimes a little bit of luck, finding the extraordinary in the ordinary, looking up at the night sky and realizing that you are part of an impossibly beautiful and mysterious universe, and that you don't know all the answers no matter how clever you are. It's about looking inside yourself and realizing that you are far greater then the external conditions of your life: you're not a shop girl, you're not a medical student, you're not an office temp, you're not a little girl who needs to grow up, or a boy who thinks the love of his life could have done better. You are the most important person in all of creation, and at the same time you are the most insignificant creature in the world, and having the ability to change between the two at any moment is simply fantastic. It's about embracing your inner darkness so you can stand in the light of your truth. It's about having the guts to do the right thing when everyone else just runs away. and five ago years it bestowed upon me boundless joy and and a determination to do something with my life that i could be proud of... thank you